付出+想念+期待=====绝望+挣扎+想念+伤心

爱一个人，
是要付出的!!!
可是她知道吗？
就算你付出的再多，
她会知道吗？？

爱一个人，
就会在看不到她时想念她。
可是她知道吗？
就算你再想念她，
她会知道吗？？

爱一个人，
是会期待对方也爱你。
可是她知道吗？
就算你有多期待，
她会知道吗？？


结果呢！！！

你会绝望，
然后挣扎，
再来是很想念，
最后伤心....


我不介意为她付出，
我不会强逼她，
我不会告诉她我的痛苦。

我会消失，
躲起来，
在黑暗中，
默默守护她。

我希望我能让她快乐，
如果我消失的话，
她会更快乐，
那我情愿消失，
永永远远不会再出现在她面前。


这就是暗恋一个人的结果！！

lost lost lost...

just came back from America, everything in Malaysia i still cant use to it...
this few days i feel like i am very tired and moody...
i dunno is that anything else besides tiredness that make me moody...
i dunno what happened to me...
where am i??? the real 'me'
seems like when i am writing this post, i am not the real 'me'
i am someone else...
i dunno who am i....
i dunno what i am doing right now...
i have lost my direction....
i feel that i have changed...
my attitude, my mood, my thinking...
all changed until i cant really recognize who am i...
i still can continue my normal life but my heart like missing something...
i feel like i am missing someone...
i dunno what i did is right or wrong!!!
i dunno what i have decided is right or wrong!!
everything in my world seems to be very strange to me...
i cant go back to the past and become the 'me' the past..
i have lost direction in my own mind and soul...
is this the next challenge that the GOD want me to overcome it??
can i forgot her???

i miss her...
how i gonna forget..

Broken heart

Do you ever feel it b4?
It juz like many small needles, penetrate into your heart........
Arghh.....
OR the heart juz lyk a piece of glass,
'priangggg...', it's broken.........



I have felt the pain recently,
everyday juz lyk a crazy guy,
lyk i got a lot of 怨恨in my heart,
when i laugh,
it's so fake to me.....
I hate it...
REALLY hate it!!!!!!!!
WHY cant i juz be myself, become normal back????
But the feeling keeps disturbing me,
i REALLY tired to become lyk tat...

WHAT i did these days!!!!!!!
everyday make myself to be bz,
no time to think of it......
BUT it's useless!!!!!!


Is it bcoz i think too much?
Is it bocz i feel sad??
Is it bcoz i feel lonely and helpless??


NONONONONO................


i juz dunno WHY i will feel so????

HAIX!!!!!!!!!!!!!

唉， 孤单呀！

空虚， 空虚， 还是空虚...
突然觉得生活好烦闷呀！！！
我到底是怎么了？？
今天放学后， 心情没来由的很低落。
虽然自己很努力的让自己开心起来，和别人开玩笑，
可是那种郁闷的感觉还是占领了我！！ TT
那种感觉令我觉得我自己是多么的孤单。
一个人坐在BP门外，发呆！！
唉，那种感觉还是很顽固，不肯向我道别呢！！！
在补习时，简直就没有心情和朋友开玩笑，
他们和我说笑，我反而觉得很烦呢！！

总结来说，

我好孤独啊！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

痛苦

爱你的那一个　伤你的那一个
谁才是你爱情中的伯乐
放弃了这一个　然後等待着下一个
最後哪一个最让你舍不得

感谢不能让别人来说
你给过我的 他们是做不到的
那时候的幸福是真的
虽然过去了　我们也都经历了

释怀教育着仇恨　和平劝着天下人
故事发生了便住下了　不管好的坏的
你让我成长了　就算是痛得值得

爱你的那一个　伤你的那一个
谁才是你爱情中的伯乐
放弃了这一个　然後等待着下一个
一个个过客过得快不快乐



听了这首歌后，好感伤呀！！
唱着唱着， 不知觉中一颗颗泪珠从我眼中慢慢的滚下来了....
完完全全的沉醉在每一个词句中...
好感动...

最近的心情不知道为什么会起伏不定
发脾气，生气，没心情，不高兴.....
脾气开始变得暴躁了...
我是不是快要发疯了？？

我到底在做什么？？
我自己都不知道...
就很像过着行尸走肉的日子...
好痛苦！！ 好难受！！好不开心！！

谁来救救我呀？

Haix!!!!

what is love??
it will hurt ppl?
or it will make ppl happy??
who can answer me??

i reli suffer a lot thse days...
i try my best not to think abt her,
but why! why! why my mind still think abt her...
my heart is crying now, my soul ady disappeared...
live without a soul, like a zombie..

i cant control myself anymore..
my body seems to be losing control...
everyday try to make myself bz,
make myself no time to think abt her,
i want to 'ma zhui' myself,
i dun wan to suffer anymore...
why cant i juz live without her...

everytime she sad,
i worry so much,
she cry,
my heart broken,
she happy, i also happy..

BUT

she dunno tat i 'an lian; her...
she dunno tat i reli suffer a lot bcoz of her...
she dunno tat i seriously poisoned by the 'love poison'..
she dunno tat i always support her from the bottom of my heart...
she dunno tat i will protect her and worry abt her wherever she is...


but everything is overed nw....
i wont have the chance anymore....
i think is the time for me to gib up on her....
i will zhu fu her for my whole life....

it's OVERED....
i shud stop thinking of her....
NO MORE NO MORE NO MORE........
i will keep telling myself like tat...
NO MORE NO MORE NO MORE!!!!
NO MORE thinking of her.....

TEACHER"S DAY

haix!!!! tiring day for me...
whole nite juz sleep abt 2-3 hours,
preparing for the ceremony of teACHER's day..
y all ned to do laz minute???
this is the question i wan to ask all my juniors..

but that day is Chye Huey birthday la..
wish her happy birthday and happy forever..
i know on tat day she cried,
but i know u all got put in effort,
but i reli disappointed wif u al coz all things did in laz minute...

i know u all got exam,
but this is not a good excuse lol..
laz year all the seniors also got faced this problem.
y tis year cannot be better than laz year??

dun talk abt tat le....
today i learned sth....
tat is if u smile sincerely to a person,
although he/she is angry,
but they also will feel beta if u smile at them...

i think i will start to smile,
but plz dun tot tat i am a org gila!!!
hahaha.....