付出+想念+期待=====绝望+挣扎+想念+伤心

爱一个人，
是要付出的!!!
可是她知道吗？
就算你付出的再多，
她会知道吗？？

爱一个人，
就会在看不到她时想念她。
可是她知道吗？
就算你再想念她，
她会知道吗？？

爱一个人，
是会期待对方也爱你。
可是她知道吗？
就算你有多期待，
她会知道吗？？


结果呢！！！

你会绝望，
然后挣扎，
再来是很想念，
最后伤心....


我不介意为她付出，
我不会强逼她，
我不会告诉她我的痛苦。

我会消失，
躲起来，
在黑暗中，
默默守护她。

我希望我能让她快乐，
如果我消失的话，
她会更快乐，
那我情愿消失，
永永远远不会再出现在她面前。


这就是暗恋一个人的结果！！

lost lost lost...

just came back from America, everything in Malaysia i still cant use to it...
this few days i feel like i am very tired and moody...
i dunno is that anything else besides tiredness that make me moody...
i dunno what happened to me...
where am i??? the real 'me'
seems like when i am writing this post, i am not the real 'me'
i am someone else...
i dunno who am i....
i dunno what i am doing right now...
i have lost my direction....
i feel that i have changed...
my attitude, my mood, my thinking...
all changed until i cant really recognize who am i...
i still can continue my normal life but my heart like missing something...
i feel like i am missing someone...
i dunno what i did is right or wrong!!!
i dunno what i have decided is right or wrong!!
everything in my world seems to be very strange to me...
i cant go back to the past and become the 'me' the past..
i have lost direction in my own mind and soul...
is this the next challenge that the GOD want me to overcome it??
can i forgot her???

i miss her...
how i gonna forget..