Broken heart

Do you ever feel it b4?
It juz like many small needles, penetrate into your heart........
Arghh.....
OR the heart juz lyk a piece of glass,
'priangggg...', it's broken.........



I have felt the pain recently,
everyday juz lyk a crazy guy,
lyk i got a lot of 怨恨in my heart,
when i laugh,
it's so fake to me.....
I hate it...
REALLY hate it!!!!!!!!
WHY cant i juz be myself, become normal back????
But the feeling keeps disturbing me,
i REALLY tired to become lyk tat...

WHAT i did these days!!!!!!!
everyday make myself to be bz,
no time to think of it......
BUT it's useless!!!!!!


Is it bcoz i think too much?
Is it bocz i feel sad??
Is it bcoz i feel lonely and helpless??


NONONONONO................


i juz dunno WHY i will feel so????

HAIX!!!!!!!!!!!!!

唉， 孤单呀！

空虚， 空虚， 还是空虚...
突然觉得生活好烦闷呀！！！
我到底是怎么了？？
今天放学后， 心情没来由的很低落。
虽然自己很努力的让自己开心起来，和别人开玩笑，
可是那种郁闷的感觉还是占领了我！！ TT
那种感觉令我觉得我自己是多么的孤单。
一个人坐在BP门外，发呆！！
唉，那种感觉还是很顽固，不肯向我道别呢！！！
在补习时，简直就没有心情和朋友开玩笑，
他们和我说笑，我反而觉得很烦呢！！

总结来说，

我好孤独啊！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

痛苦

爱你的那一个　伤你的那一个
谁才是你爱情中的伯乐
放弃了这一个　然後等待着下一个
最後哪一个最让你舍不得

感谢不能让别人来说
你给过我的 他们是做不到的
那时候的幸福是真的
虽然过去了　我们也都经历了

释怀教育着仇恨　和平劝着天下人
故事发生了便住下了　不管好的坏的
你让我成长了　就算是痛得值得

爱你的那一个　伤你的那一个
谁才是你爱情中的伯乐
放弃了这一个　然後等待着下一个
一个个过客过得快不快乐



听了这首歌后，好感伤呀！！
唱着唱着， 不知觉中一颗颗泪珠从我眼中慢慢的滚下来了....
完完全全的沉醉在每一个词句中...
好感动...

最近的心情不知道为什么会起伏不定
发脾气，生气，没心情，不高兴.....
脾气开始变得暴躁了...
我是不是快要发疯了？？

我到底在做什么？？
我自己都不知道...
就很像过着行尸走肉的日子...
好痛苦！！ 好难受！！好不开心！！

谁来救救我呀？

Haix!!!!

what is love??
it will hurt ppl?
or it will make ppl happy??
who can answer me??

i reli suffer a lot thse days...
i try my best not to think abt her,
but why! why! why my mind still think abt her...
my heart is crying now, my soul ady disappeared...
live without a soul, like a zombie..

i cant control myself anymore..
my body seems to be losing control...
everyday try to make myself bz,
make myself no time to think abt her,
i want to 'ma zhui' myself,
i dun wan to suffer anymore...
why cant i juz live without her...

everytime she sad,
i worry so much,
she cry,
my heart broken,
she happy, i also happy..

BUT

she dunno tat i 'an lian; her...
she dunno tat i reli suffer a lot bcoz of her...
she dunno tat i seriously poisoned by the 'love poison'..
she dunno tat i always support her from the bottom of my heart...
she dunno tat i will protect her and worry abt her wherever she is...


but everything is overed nw....
i wont have the chance anymore....
i think is the time for me to gib up on her....
i will zhu fu her for my whole life....

it's OVERED....
i shud stop thinking of her....
NO MORE NO MORE NO MORE........
i will keep telling myself like tat...
NO MORE NO MORE NO MORE!!!!
NO MORE thinking of her.....

TEACHER"S DAY

haix!!!! tiring day for me...
whole nite juz sleep abt 2-3 hours,
preparing for the ceremony of teACHER's day..
y all ned to do laz minute???
this is the question i wan to ask all my juniors..

but that day is Chye Huey birthday la..
wish her happy birthday and happy forever..
i know on tat day she cried,
but i know u all got put in effort,
but i reli disappointed wif u al coz all things did in laz minute...

i know u all got exam,
but this is not a good excuse lol..
laz year all the seniors also got faced this problem.
y tis year cannot be better than laz year??

dun talk abt tat le....
today i learned sth....
tat is if u smile sincerely to a person,
although he/she is angry,
but they also will feel beta if u smile at them...

i think i will start to smile,
but plz dun tot tat i am a org gila!!!
hahaha.....

幸福

生活中的点点滴滴都是那么的深刻
还记得我在学校的生活
多么自在，多么开心
有时候，我真地会有一种“我是全世界最幸福的人”的感觉
那种感觉真是太美妙了

一个人只要不计较那么多，
开朗一些，要对未来充满期望，
人生一定会很多姿多彩。

就像我，
哈哈哈！！！
我觉得自己真得很幸福，
有那么好的姐姐疼我，
有两个对我也很好的哥哥，
爸爸妈妈的关怀，
以及朋友们的支持，
少不了老师们的照顾。。。。

这种感觉我在以前时，
都不曾有过。
或许我的心灵在慢慢地成长着吧！！！

Exhausted but HAPPY

Today i really feel tired, can't even concentrate when i was studying biology.
i don't know what was i reading, just feel that my mind is thinking abt other things.
maybe it's because yesterday i watched drama until 4 o'clock midnite.
And i woke up at abt 11o'clock today.
still feel sleepy when i woke up.
bcoz my sister don't let me to continue sleeping.
next time i won't do so again.
it's a lesson to me that i shouldn't watch any drama during exam season.
really tired.....
Hahaha.......

Today my whole family went out to watch movie except ME....
Haix!!!!
they watched X-MEN ORIGIN which i really wanted to watch it very much...
But in the end i decided not to follow them. Just stay at home to study.
So SAd, so lonely....
pity myself....
hehehe.....
Still got few more chapters to study.
i suddenly feel that i can't finished my revision on BIO.
Bcoz i fall asleep when i was studying BIO.

SO,
i managed to sleep earlier today.
to restore my energy used up laz nite to watch drama
hehee...

THE only things that i feel happy today is that i went for cycling with KIMu around my housing estate and we went to school too.
haha....
it's quite fun, but my backside feel very pain LOL....
riding on bicycle for such a long time.....
Aiyorr!!!!!Aduh!!!!

Today just finished my ADD MATHS Exam
Very sad....
Made a lot of CAREless mistake!!!
But i know its already over
i shouldnt think about it again
Haiz.......
BUT yesterday is Kai Jian's Bufday...KP"s BIRTHDAY....
such a big day, man!!!!!!
hahaha.....

TO:MY bElOvEd KaI jIaN....
BUDDY....
WISH U HAVE A NICE BUFDAY THIS YEAR....
AND DO WELL IN YOUR EXAM....


Next week is such a important week to me,
"HISTORY" "BIOLOGY" & "CHEMISTRY"
LOL!!!!!!!!
THREE hard subjects come together....
exhausted......
BUT to get STRAIGHT A1!!!!!!
I will sacrifice manythings to reach my target..
just LIKE "REALPOLITICS"
hahaha......

Love Story- Taylor Swift

I like this song very much.... Touching and romantic....

The worst exam day in my life

Chinese Language Examination arghhhh.....
i am so disappointed of myself.....
what am i doing during exam......
DREAMING!!!!!!!!!
can't even write out a good opening for my essay....................
dunno whether i can get A1 or not....
sad......
mayb i am too tired....
i shud take more rest b4 exam....
but now only regret is useless....
i will do better next week in my other subjects examination....
CHeer UP...!!!!!!!!!
Bong!!!!
U can do it!!!!!!